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  Finally

  I think it's about time I made good use of this site seeing as I signed up for it back in the summer of 2009. But enough of the digressive revelations, I'm here to talk about weight, health, body image, etc etc. So, I guess I'll start with my views, my stories, and whatever background anecdotes related to this issue that has ultimately resulted in the current "figure" I have. My Body: Overall, I'm a relatively small person. I stand just slightly above 5'4", I'm neither fat nor skinny, "average" if you must define my weight. Yet, I feel percentage-wise my body leans towards more of the higher fat ratio. My weight fluctuates like crazy, a phenomenon I can thank my father for. It's probably most likely that my Asian genes have a lot to attribute to this, also. One thing I am certain of though is that I am not fit....at all. Exercise: Sports were never emphasized in my family. I meddled in gymnastics and I took a few years of swimming lessons. By the time I was in Middle School, PE no longer was required for me because of some bullsh** reasoning that students in the program for the more academically inclined were to be excluded from such activity because of their supposedly overwhelming schedule full of studying. Honestly, the last time I had ever ran a full mile before I started up again last summer was back in the 7th grade...a wopping 7 years ago. In between I tried to meddle in short workouts, but soon school did take over, and my college years really screwed that up. Diet: I basically eat whatever I want. I'm weak. I crave good food. I grew up eating Filipino food, which at times isn't the most healthy options. My mother was the type who always encouraged me to eat more. And being Asian, I've always been devastated by the fact that white rice is a big no-no in the dieting world. This may just be the hardest part of my workout plan. Body Image: I've never been bothered too much by body image. I go to a school where 3/4 girls could be classified as anorexic. I live in a city where fashion is an obsession and thinness is glorified. Heck, just to get to my doctor's office downtown, I have to briskly walk by agonizingly thin, gorgeous fashion models. And they're not just your typical Sears catalog / Gap happy-go-lucky models. Think Prada. Marc Jacobs. New York Fashion week. I would honestly just like to start feeling healthy. Weight Issues: My weight issues are usually more emotionally tied. The times I've lost the most weight have been during breakups. Yes, it seems a little naive...but I guess ever girl goes through her heartbreaks. It also seems so typical: Not being able to eat because of a breakup. I would lose 10 lbs within a week and keep it off. It sort of turned into a little joke of needing to experience another breakup so that I could lose weight. My freshman year of college, I did not experience the infamous Freshman 15 because of a potential breakup. Instead, I lost around 15 lbs. Today: It's right before the new year. I'm finally going to try and partake in this resolution ordeal. Currently, I feel like I'm back to my average weight...I feel slightly more heavier than usual. I feel like there's more fat in some areas that weren't there a few weeks ago (Finals week really did a lot to my body...). I think tomorrow will be the big weigh in. I'm slightly scared that my weight has gone back up to its peak (around 140lbs), but we'll see. And I kind of feel like I'm cheating myself by trying to eat everything I want to eat, and slightly overeating in general, because of this impending diet plan. But I hope to stick with it. Wish me luck.

  Posted about 1 year ago by adorevintage