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  I'm finding it rather freeing to intuitively eat, and am becoming at peace with myself. My binges are no longer daily, but I've gone through 2 binge periods, each on the few days right before my period. I am happy that my weight didn't fluctuate too much over the past 2 months (except for the first week I started to intuitively eat(I was still kind of strict and in diet mode with myself-was doing too much too soon, and lost 5.5lbs in 3 days, mostly water) and then the water/fat gains from PMS binging(which usually brings me up 3-4lbs). Otherwise, when I step on the scale, I am usually at 181-183lbs, which is rare for me, b/c I'm usually either gaining 8-10lbs a month, or losing 8-10lbs a month! Right now I'm up b/c I'm on my period, and was binging a few days prior. Even though finals are coming up, and I'll be busy, I'm trying to take intuitive eating a step further. Now that I have proven to myself that I can maintain by eating intuitively, I want to start using it to lose weight. I'm very scared that I may get too strict and start to lose control again and binge daily, but I'm going to take it day by day. I've already been excercising the past 3 weeks doing Slim n 6, and before that I jogged outside for 2.5weeks, but didn't feel safe, so switched to doing Slim n 6 in my house. In June, I plan to start P90X. As for eating, it's mostly cutting down the sweets and starches, and increasing veggies. I'm already getting adequate protein, fruits, and good fats daily. I'm hoping to wean my body from wanting sweets on a daily basis but if I really want it, I will have it on occassion to avoid becoming deprived.

  Posted over 2 years ago by cgina77

  
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  A Serious Reflection

  3 days ago, after a late night binge, I started to assess my current diet struggle as well as my past dieting history. I realized that as much as I wanted to eat normally but healthy again, I just could no longer seem to do it. Every day, I wake up with good intentions, and by 4-6pmish, the cravings become so unbareable, that I then decide to have a last supper type meal, so that I can 'get it out of my system' and start afresh the next day. These last supper binges probablly started happening a cpl times a week, then 4-5 days a week, and then pretty much daily for the past 2 weeks. I was rapidly gaining all the weight I lost a few months ago (About 1-2lbs a week), and it seemed to be getting worse. I was also feeling so sluggish all the time, and found it hard to study the way that I used to last semester b/c of all the junk food clogging up my head and my bowels. Once the urge to eat and snack on junk came, I just could not say no, and would devour around 1500-2000 cals in a period of 2-3 hrs. I logged it in here some days, so I know. My daily calories were as high as 3000 calories on some days but were mostly around 2400ish on the days I'd log it in. I would feel so ashamed that I thought I had my diet under control for 4 months in a row, but now, I'm so out of control and could not get back on track no matter how much I tried. I started researching on bingeing and found a bunch of resources to give me information about it. I've read about it before, but didn't realize how serious it was. I also watched some youtube videos of ppl who had binge eating disorder and would describe their binges and their feelings exactly to the T of what I was going through. There was one lady that had videos over the past 3 years and showed her journey to beat binge eating disorder, and she is thin in her most recent videos. She finally beat the disorder! I wanted to know what diet she tried. She had done so many diets. The ones I saw videos of were the cookie diet, and 30 days of fasting. She acutally GAINED 8lbs on the cookie diet, and while she lost 28lbs on 30 days of fasting, she gained about 50lbs back in less than 60 days!! She then started focusing on why she couldn't follow any diet, and the reasons why she ate. She started reading a bunch of literature on binge eating and emotional eating and her videos became more spiritual-focused now on inner healing, loving herself, and dealing with daily stressors. She then started losing weight b/c her face was shrinking throughout the videos. I was memorized, watching her videos, and seeing her transformation. She did not log in her weight or really talk about her weight. She mostly spoke about life issues and psychology, and also showed her groceries and did nutrition bar reviews. A year later, she announced that she had lost 80lbs and was a size 4. She looked amazing! She looked like a different person. She also exuded so much positive energy. She was in a diferent place. She knew she was never going back. She kept saying that she progressed b/c she finally realized that diets don't work, and that her weight struggle was not about food, and not even about weight. She had to fix her internal issues, love herself, feel emotions instead of stuffing them with food before she could lose the weight. She said the weight loss was only a side effect of the internal healing. She also said that she had lost weight many times in the past but felt that this was different. She never did a diet, only listened to her body's hunger and satiety cues. She said that diets actually cause binging and that they don't work. I was inspired b/c watching where she came from, and seeing where she was now, 524 videos later, was a true transformation! There was another lady that only made about 10 videos but also had an issue with emotional eating. She did lots and lots of research about personalities of those with emotional eating and shared some invaluable information. It was great. In about 8months, she had lost about 30lbs and was a size 2! She seemed different inside and out! She's now working on some audios to share everything she has learned through her journey. I really hope she doesn't start charging for it, lol! I realized that my past strict low carb dieting, which was VERY healthy for my body(I had EXCELLENT bloodwork according to my Dr in Jan), was unfortunately too restrictive on my mind, which was not good for me. And here I was, thinking that I had no self-control, and needed a diet plan to keep my eating habits on track, but instead the restrictiveness of the diet was what was making me fail each and every day, and damn near driving me crazy! So I decided that I too was going to forgo diets. No food is off limits to me anymore! I can eat what I want when I want, as long as I'm physically hungry. If I am craving food but not physically hungry, I need to dig deep and find out what issue that I am trying to AVOID with food, and tackle that issue directly. I also want to find out as much information on intuitive eating and proper coping mechanisms. I'm still finding out more information, but have stopped emotional eating in the meantime. It's been weird but I have released so much bloat. I've gone from 182-176.5 in 3 days from eating whatever I want. I really feel a sense of hope and freedom. I can't wait to learn more.

  Posted over 2 years ago by cgina77

  
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  RFL

  I've been back on a RFL type plan. Pretty much low carb, low calorie, low fat type plan modeled after Rusty Moore as well as Brad Pilon's Eat Stop Eat's mantra to fat loss without destroying your metabolism: Calories low for fatloss (with sufficient protein) AND weight training to preserve muscle mass while dieting. I'm also weight training 3x a week and doing 1-2 days a week of cardio in the form of dancing or bike riding! I'm doing a 5-exercise weight training plan from the Grrl Athlete website for the next 3 weeks, then switching to a Turbulence Training Workout. Taking it one day at a time!

  Posted over 3 years ago by cgina77

  
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  RFL Results

  I lost 11lbs total using the RFL plan(186-175). I am now eating at maintenance and gained back some water weight from eating carbs again (179). In all, I am pleased with the results. I went down half a dress size as well, and fit very comfortably in my 12's and my 13s are very loose now. Since I'll be doing another study during the entire month of June, I will not go back on RFL again till July. I'm also still keeping up with my weights, doing 3 days a week of weights, and 3 days a week of cardio (45 min of speed walking).

  Posted over 3 years ago by cgina77

  
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  Back from clinical study-week 2

  Okay, just finished the study, made my $$$, now back to Lyle's RFL plan till May 15th

  Posted over 3 years ago by cgina77