cupcakebetty's Fitness Profile

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  On the wagon!

  So! I've had some good progress, and I thought I'd document so that in a little while, when I've inevitably fallen off the wagon or feel discouraged, I can come back and see what I did. I won't mince words - it's been HARD. I've gone out and limited myself to 2 beers, which I nursed, and had budgeted them into my calories for the day. I think I even once just ate a yogurt for dinner so that I could still be within my range for the day. I've also been sticking with my walking and going to BOTH Zumba classes at the gym; one of Tuesday and one on Saturday morning. But, at the end of the day, all this hard work really DOES pay off. And it's worth it. No one has noticed yet (or if they have, they haven't said anything), but I notice. And it makes me feel good!!! It's been over a week that I've been at or under my calorie goal every day! This weekend will be a challenge - tomorrow is our DP for Hannah's birthday, and then Friday is the pub crawl. I think Friday will just have to be a Designated Day Off, because I want to HAVE FUN and not be thinking about how many calories are in this or that drink. I'll just have to be extra careful at the DP tomorrow night, and extra good afterwards. I want to keep going!!!!

  Posted over 3 years ago by cupcakebetty

  
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  Off the wagon...

  So, mom visited this weekend, and although Friday and most of Saturday I did well, I completely fell off the wagon yesterday. No...I didn't fall off, I LEAPT off! And I so totally regret it now - all my hard work! All those weeks and weeks of planning! Hopefully I didn't do too much damage, and I'm definitely back ON this week. I need to be down to 137 by next Tuesday...as of last week, I only had 3 to go, and 3 pounds in 2 weeks is ok...but who knows how much I set myself back this weekend?! UGH!!!!

  Posted over 3 years ago by cupcakebetty

  
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  Family Pressure

  Amanda came to visit last night, and then mom and dad, and I ate more than I was planning to. It's so much easier to just fall back into old habits when they're around...and so much of our family activities revolve around food! That's something to think about for our future family - spending time together, being active, that's not all food based!! I weighed in at 145 this week, which is down 5lbs from when I was weighed at the doctor. Of course, I'm not sure how accurate that really was - middle of the day, after lunch, clothes on, etc etc etc. But in any case, it wasn't 150, and I now have 15 pounds as my 1st target!

  Posted over 3 years ago by cupcakebetty

  
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  Weakness & Disappointment

  I was doing fine, logging everything, had a plan for the evening, felt motivated...then I got home, he had made curry and rice pilaf, and I just dug in with the fork. Luckily I stopped myself, felt disappointed, made a fine dinner for myself, logged even my indiscretions...then he got an ice cream...I just keep getting so MAD! It manifests as anger at him - for tempting me, for distracting me, for not understanding - but really I am mad at myself. Mad that I let myself get this way AGAIN, mad that I have this problem, mad that I can't stay focused. Anyway, after I logged everything - even allowed myself a treat! - I went back to the curry and mini-binged on it. Disgusting. Disgusting! I don't think I actually even went over what I originally logged (actually, def did on the rice pilaf - will go update that now), but still feel so disappointed. Instead of doing yoga or pilates ("I'll do it tomorrow!" which is what I ALWAYS say), I did crunches and lifted weights in front of the tv. It was fine, but I am still disappointed in myself.

  Posted over 3 years ago by cupcakebetty