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  I. Hate. Exercising.

  Today, I hate exercising. I was having this crazy weird dream about former co-workers when I hear my roommate yell upstairs, "Jen!! JENNAFER! You going to work out?" "Crap!" I yell. It was 6:51. PT starts at 7 sharp. We were 3 minutes late. I was still half asleep. We jogged. We did push ups. We did sit ups. Topped it off with fire hyrdrants and donkey kicks, and of course....a sprint. My goal was 100 meter dash in 40 seconds. Got it in at 26. Got jogged lap around the track in at 2:50. But today, it was hard. Today, I didn't want to exercise. I wanted to be in my bed, snug and warm and asleep. I was quiet at PT while everyone else was cheery. Spoke only when spoken to - just like I am when I'm in a bad mood. But it wasn't that I was in a bad mood. Just hated exercising today. And you know what I noticed? When I hate exercising, it makes it infinitely harder to work out. My legs were filled with lead. My abs felt as if they hadn't been working out lately; and my breath was about as short as some one's temper. I hope there aren't many more days like this.

  Posted over 3 years ago by intrepid1

  
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  Lessons Learned

  Eating poison makes the body feel like crap. It's like putting bad gasoline in the car. I tried things I thought I wanted....pizza, ice cream. Inevitably, everything tasted like card board, and what I managed to get down made me feel like crap. Lesson learned. Ran 1.5 miles this morning WITHOUT walking!! YEA!!! Note to self: must wear more than longjohns and long-sleeve t-shirt to work out in when it is 27 degrees F outside!! BRRR!!!

  Posted over 3 years ago by intrepid1

  
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  I did it!!!

  I ran a mile this morning in PT without walking!!! Took 14 minutes, but not bad for my first non-walking, mile-long run in about 10 years. YEA!!! It's going to be a fabulous day!

  Posted over 3 years ago by intrepid1

  
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  Damn.

  It's already 6 pm and I haven't gone for my run. Overslept this morning. That seems to be the theme for this semsester. And I hate oversleeping. Feels like the day has been wasted. On the upside, feeling much better today....so as soon as I get done with this, gonna hit the pavement. Yep. It's raining outside...cold raining. Just enough to make for a perfect indoor day, but I actually have this overwhelming urge to get out and exercise. After talking to Sam last night, I wondered, "Why is it that I can be trusted to help others - to serve others - but never myself? Why haven't I put myself first?" None of my friends talk to me the way I think about myself - so why? Why? Why? Why!??! Ugh! It's maddening. I was 13 when in a heated rage, Dad told me I wasn't his favorite kid any more. He said I'd never amount to anything. I'd be pregnant by the age of 16 because I was so boy crazy; wouldn't graduate from high school because I'm not smart enough; and I'd be in trouble with the law by the age of 21. As for being a lawyer? Not good enough. No way would I succeed. He said this about me - the one that every other parent wanted to adopt. Parents always asked, "Why can't my kid be like you?" I didn't get pregnant at age 16. At 30, I've never been pregnant. Graduated advanced placement with honors in the top 35% of my high school class from the 7th largest high school in Texas. Never been in trouble with the law, and in about 195 days, I'm going to have my J.D. By J.D., I mean law degree - not my ex fiance. So what I've done to myself and how I've treated myself can't be about what someone's said about me, because as soon as someone says something negative, I set out to disprove them. (Trademark of a future litigator.) I don't know. What I do know is that this is like the road to recovery. Right now, I consciously think about everything that goes into my body and the things I do. And why is it it's taken ___ years to realize that I deserve to be happy. Okay. Too much thinking. Time for a jog.

  Posted over 3 years ago by intrepid1

  
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  Swine Flu Part Deux

  I hate feeling like sh**. Seriously. Rainy, cold weather + flu like symptoms = NO fun! I feel weak and icky, not strong and mighty. Last night and most of the day today, I resisted the urge to vomit. Took another 3 hour nap. Who the heck has time for naps? I have a 20-page paper due in about 3 weeks. On the bright side, I served as the government's guinea pig and got the H1N1 nasal mist. It's like the flu shot but you snort it. haha. Swine flu. Snort. Soccer was cancelled because of the rain. Hopefully, I'll be feeling better in the morning. I'd like to jog those 2.1 miles from here to the new Wal-Mart. They're building a Wal-Mart in town. That's the big, exciting news. Since 2000, they've had a sign that says, "Wal-Mart coming soon." Last year it was vandalized, and this year it was taken down. Lo and behold, there's construction on the site. Two things I'm very proud of. 1) Went and saw "Couple's Retreat" last night. Funny. Plus, you can't beat $3 to the movies. Wanna give me a cookie for going to the movie? No. Don't. The thing is, I didn't take anything with me to eat/drink, and I didn't buy anything to eat/drink. I think that's amazing - especially considering how cheap it is to buy crap food at this particular theater. Second, I've resisted the urge to buy crap food period. Even on the way to and at the grocery store. That's probably why there's me eating bananas and apples. My way of taking care of that damned sweet tooth. A super hot (but super married) professor asked me if I had fun at the ball this past Saturday. It was okay. I told him I'm practicing sobriety. He stopped dead in his tracks. "WHY!?" (Envision Pauly Shore on "Son-in-Law": "RULES?!") He went onto say it's okay to drink....vodka, straight. Quick. Name something I haven't done since undergrad. (Drink vodka straight.) Kinda glad alcohol's not important to me. Just one less thing to worry about.

  Posted over 3 years ago by intrepid1