theostlerscat's Fitness Profile

theostlerscat's Journal

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  I gave up for a while

  Somewhere along the line, sometime after October, I just got fed up with my diet and bored with my routine and I gave up. I kept building muscle, but I let my weight go. I made excuses and gave myself passes and finally threw it all to hell over the holidays and put on 10 pounds! It is not going to be easy to recover because I really need someone to workout with and someone to help with motivation and variety and I don't have the money.

  Posted about 1 year ago by theostlerscat

  
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  Shooting myself in the foot?

  It is crazy that I am having these binges now that I have not had for all of this time. I mean wild, out of control binges on stuff that isn't even good. Well, it is good, but not anything like one would think of as a food to crave... like dry oatmeal with brown sugar or beans with cheese, or cheese and crackers; just stuff. And the craziest part is that I eat until I feel sick, sometimes for hours, in spite of the pain in my stomach and the fact that I can hardly sit down. I don't like this and It must be emotional, but I don't know what is triggering it. I gained 10 lbs in less than 2 weeks! and I have been exercising and I am not leaner, I am fatter.

  Posted over 2 years ago by theostlerscat

  
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  The last few pounds...

  It isn't that the last few pounds are hard to loose, it is that the moments of weakness are more drastic and noticeable. I keep falling apart on Sundays and spinning into a carb binge. I even think, "I shouldn't be doing this", and I do it anyway. I am so close and people keep telling me that I should stop or that I have lost enough. But what is wrong with completing the goal. 128 lbs isn't too thin for me, I have weighed that for years when I was dancing (and I was the fat one!).

  Posted over 2 years ago by theostlerscat

  
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  Getting Close

  It is interesting that I am getting close to my goal and the same old crap is starting up with my family ... they think that I am getting too thin and that I can stop now. By that they mean go back to not exercising daily and return to eating "normally"; like loosing weight is something you do and it is over. I know that the process of staying in shape does not end. That is how I ended up getting fat before. Every time I buckle to their pressure to stop my fitness/dance lifestyle, I get fat. I have seen this all of my life- being thin and fit does not come naturally to me. It is hard to be nice after all of these years. When they say things like, "try this (whatever) fattening thing I bought you..." and they say that I can stop being on a diet because I look fine now, it makes me want to scream at them.

  Posted over 2 years ago by theostlerscat

  
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  Moving right along...

  I got unstuck by going to a meal replacement for dinner and changing from bread to pinto beans at lunch. I think I feel better now that I have not eaten any bread in a long time; and my stomach is flatter than it has ever been in my whole life.

  Posted over 2 years ago by theostlerscat